It has been a long, cold , grey winter. Since the time the calendars were gone and the holidays were over, finding the motivation to attempt any real adventures has seemed impossible. Cement skies and icy road conditions were a good excuse for a while, as well as the short days and boatload of work we had piled up in the 6-month road trip.
Really, we were just tired. Perhaps we still are.
I began traveling full time in 2011, living out of a small station wagon and going where the wind blew. By the time I began dating and traveling with Sophie in 2017, I had spent more of my adult life living in isolation, unattached to places or things than I had in apartments and conventional living.
Even after Sophie and I were together, we still continued to travel on a shoestring budget going wherever we could get to for as long as we could afford to be there.
After winning the Michelob Ultra contest, we could afford a place to rent in the US for the first time in our life together. While it sounded appealing for some time, I don’t think either of us realized just how much we needed the stability of a home until we had one. Now, the struggle is in leaving it.
Already I am getting anxious that we may be getting too comfortable. Spending all day in sweat pants at a laptop making travel guides and working on photos from old adventures makes it too easy to get caught up in the past. There have been too many good reasons to avoid the chase – to avoid the discomfort and cost of getting many of the photos you typically see on our Facebooks and website.
As people look over our proverbial fence to see the green grass of a perpetual travel life, we find ourselves admiring the lawn on their side of the fence. We see friends who are no longer anxious about finances, enjoying homes that they own with walls filled by photos as we stare at the blank white walls of our rental. We see them joyously sharing photos of their families and pets while we day dream about having a four legged friend to curl up on the couch with, but are not allowed in our unit.
And then the trees began to blossom. Grey became blue. We began to wake up to the sound of birds chirping nearby. The snow melted and spring emerged, providing provocation for change.